new seasons

I'm a pretty scheduled person and I like to know what's coming next in my day. Despite living my life based on to-do lists and planned activities I find myself nervous about KNOWING what my next season in life is going to be. It's one thing when those "seasons" sneak upon you and you don't realize it for a while but it's another thing when you see it ahead of you and are expecting it.

I have been offered a job with a local church as a teacher for the Mother's Day Out program. It starts August 26th (my baby's first birthday) and will be every Tuesday and Thursday from 9-2:30. I have also been offered to work the Mothers of Preschoolers program on Wedesdays from 8-12 starting August 20th. This means that Anna-Kate will be starting her first experience of a "school" like atmosphere pretty much on her first birthday!

I'm a little nervous about how this is going to play out in her little life. I have been with her everyday since the day she was born. She has spent the first year of her life under mommy's wing and now I have to take the risk of offering my little person to someone else to care for her while I'm working with other children. I know, I'm sounding pretty overdramatic here...she'll be less than a minute away in her classroom, with her teacher and little friends, but STILL! This is going to be a huge transition...probably more for me than her.

I'm sure everything will work out fine but I get nervous to think about what might be going on inside her little head when mommy is no longer "right there"...which technically, I will be but not. Anyways, those are my thoughts right now.