battle of the mind

I found out yesterday that we have some committed renters for our house. Great, now it's almost totally 100% official. Which, really, nothing is 100% until it happens but you know what I mean. This is making the realization more...real. My mind is battling against itself. Some days I think about how I know this is best for us right now. It will be good for us to have tons more time to be together as a family, more time to take some classes, more energy to actually DO things as a family, less of a house to clean ;), more room for our big dog, a "built-in" babysitter, a change (which is sometimes good), new friends and new hobbies. Then I think about how I will have to leave a job that I love!, we will be using well water and it has the most awful smell in the world, the water pressure (excuse my lang) sucks, when Sean goes to work (out of town) on the weekends I will be left without a vehicle in a city where I know noone, no dishwasher and I'm KNOW I could come up with more but I won't. I totally see that all of these things aren't really good excuses for not moving but it was a thought ;). I know things will work out the way they are supposed to. Surely, right?!

I'm having a hard time bringing this up with my family. I have a feeling they aren't going to be exactly excited about the whole thing. I KNOW they won't. In my head I rationalize saying that it's only an hour and a half away and it's not that big of a deal. Right? Well, some people can't rationalize and they only think of the negative side of things, not what is really the best for others. It's hard and I'm putting off the conversation we'll have to have. I mean, who knows, maybe they'll surprise me but I'm having a feeling that won't be the case. I don't want to tell them too soon though because then I'll have to deal with it for a month and a half before it actually happens. Ya know? But then I think about how it's not fair for them not to know because they aren't getting a chance to spend time with us as much as they would probably want if knowing we were moving. Blah blah blah. I don't know.

I'll leave you with this, as promised, a picture of AK crawling through the house with her lovey on her head: